Sunday, November 29, 2009
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Thursday, November 26, 2009
1 – I’m thankful for my daughter, she brings me happiness everyday.
2 – I’m thankful for my husband, he is much sweeter than I probably deserve, I am so lucky.
3 – I’m thankful for Pooh Bear, I know that I will never find a better dog.
4 – I’m thankful for my wonderful parents who are amazing and supportive parents and grandparents.
5 – I’m thankful my brothers have found women that make them happy.
6 – I’m thankful for my in-laws; they are amazing and always have made me feel like a part of their family.
7 – I’m thankful for my family’s decent health (it could be worse).
8 – I’m thankful for balloons…they always make people smile especially the little person in my home.
9 – I’m thankful for memories…bad or good they make us who we are…
10 – I’m thankful for the support that I have received for Team Gillian each year.
11 – I’m thankful that I’m able to help provide for my family.
12 – I’m thankful for my useless knowledge; I’ve never understood how I can remember the things that the average person forgets and really it gets me no where in life but it makes me laugh.
13 – I’m thankful for the wonderful daycare that we found for Gillian. The owner runs it like a school so I don’t doubt that Gillian will be ready when it is time to go. And she also treats the kids like her own kids so I know my daughter is safe and taken care of all day.
14 – I’m thankful that my newest niece that is due any day now is being born full term…every baby deserves a healthy start.
15 – I’m thankful for date nights with my husband; although they are few and far between I do enjoy them.
16 – I’m thankful for photographs, I love to look at them now, love to share them and they will help me remember when I’m older.
17 – I’m thankful for all the doctors and nurses that were involved with my pregnancy and Gillian’s birth, they help make miracles happen.
18 – I’m thankful for health insurance, in the last 4 years Gillian and I would have racked up some crazy bills if we didn’t have health insurance.
19 – I’m thankful for vacations, sometimes I really need a break to do whatever I want which sometimes means absolutely nothing.
20 – I’m thankful for family gatherings, as hectic as they may seem I do look forward to them and always enjoy myself.
21 - I’m thankful for Birthday celebrations, I don’t think getting older is horrible and I love making someone’s day special.
22 – I’m thankful for 4 seasons, although fall is my favorite I can’t imagine a year without all 4.
23 – I’m thankful for my relationship with my brothers, I know siblings that don’t speak and I feel like they must be missing out.
24 – I’m thankful that my niece/god daughter is enjoying school.
25 – I’m thankful for chaos and silence; it’s nice to have both in your life.
26 – I’m thankful for my husband’s sense of humor…he always makes me laugh.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
So I did not walk in April 2006...it was just too overwhelming. So in 2007 I formed Team Gillian in honor of Gillian and to share Gillian's story and hoped to raise some money for the cause. The first year consisted of me, my parents, Craig's parents and Craig's sister...and of course baby Gillian. My hope was to raise $500 for the whole team....we did $1840 that year.
In 2008, we took it a step further and recruited a school club to help, more people came out, people that didn't have the money the year before donated that year. That year consisted of....me, Craig, my parents, Craig's parents, Craig's sister, my friend E, my friend D and her Mom, toddler Gillian and my neice E. Not pictured was the school club. My goal for the team was to raise what we had raised the year before...we did $3160.
In 2009, we took again a step further and added some new members. The team consisted of, me, Craig, my parents, Craig's parents, Craig's sister, Craig's sister's friend L, my friend D, my friend T and her daughter E, Craig's Mom's friend S and her son J and still toddler Gillian. My goal for the team was to raise what had been raised in 2007 due to an economic nightmare going on...we raised $3163.45.
I have already started fundraising for 2010 and have another amazing team forming. Currently we have...me, Craig, my parents, Craig's parents, Craig's sister, my older brother T and her wife E, my younger brother S and his GF A, my friend D and her husband B, Craig's brother-in-law, my friend L, my friend T, her daughter E and her parents and we aren't even into 2010 yet:) I am so thankful for the people that have been here through the years. So thankful that for the people that donate. Team Gillian wouldn't be a team without everyone who can't forget what we have been through for our little girl.
My goal again this year is to raise $1840...people probably will wonder why I would aim for an amount less than the last 2 years. My reasoning is first the economy is still terrible and second this amount would bring us above the $10,000 mark for what Team Gillian has raised since being started. It means a lot to me to get to that mark.
2010 is a big year for Team Gillian. We are sharing our story this year with all the walkers. As terrified as I am of speaking publically I feel that it is going to be an incredible experience. My daughter is the center of my world and sharing her amazing journey I think will help. She is proof that the March of Dimes/March for Babies is doing incredibile work.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Imagine being taken out of work 19 days after finding out you are pregnant because the doctors can't get your blood pressure under control.
Imagine finishing your first trimester and being told by your doctor that you will have a preemie just not sure how early.
Imagine finding out the sex of your baby and being thankful because you have read statistically preemie girls develop faster than boys.
Imagine being told by your doctor that getting to 34 weeks is great, 32 weeks is good, 30 weeks is okay and anything before you need to pray.
Imagine being told that your baby has an 85% of survival.
Imagine being told your baby won't cry when born.
Imagine hearing that baby cry and believing everything you have been told was wrong.
Imagine being scared to ask to hold your baby because mentally you can't handle the possibility of a no so you wait patiently 7 days for a nurse to offer the opportunity.
Imagine watching a machine help your baby survive everyday for 33 days because she can't breathe on her own.
Imagine every time your phone rang, your heart drops and you get choked up because it could be life or death.
Imagine having a baby but going home without one.
Imagine having to go back to work before your baby even gets out of the hospital.
Imagine having to plea with your baby that if she can hold on you will make all her dreams come true.
Imagine wanting to show off your proudest accomplishment and not being able to because her immune system could not handle it.
Imagine waiting till you reached your car for the tears to fall because your baby needs you to keep it together for them.
Imagine thinking that life will be normal once your baby is home to find out this was just the beginning of the journey.
Imagine having a micro preemie.
Can you imagine?
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
They went to the park.
They went to McDonald’s and on the way there Gillian said they couldn’t go because she didn’t bring her money…she really is too cute.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Friday, November 6, 2009
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Like most people we are in a routine, the 3 of us and Pooh Bear pretty much do the same things everyday. So adding another child to the mix was very interesting and different. Right from the minute they saw each other there was yelling and excitement. They were off running and playing within seconds. I went in and greeted Craig who was already cooking dinner. We had dinner and did the stepping stone right off which seemed like it was going to work. I had said I would have my niece back home around 7 so that would give the girls a little while to play together. This gave us a preview of expanding our family....The ratio of 2:2 is more overwhelming than 2:1. Not that they did anything bad or were awful to deal with but I guess we are just not use to all the noise and commotion. Craig was all sorts of our of place, normally he is Gillian's #1 playmate and he didn't really exist to them other than he had to remind them to keep the tone to an inside tone.
I had been really wanting a second child and felt our family was missing out on something since I don't know many only children but after a preview, I think our only child is definitely what suits our family.